A friend of mine used the expression "walking calendars" to describe the craziness of how fast our children grow before our very eyes and yet so slowly we don't even catch it happenning until we have one of those beautiful moments.
My babies are now toddlers and I can not believe it. It so feels like yesterday that I was pregnant with them. I am grieving the loss of my babies because I really love the baby stage. And, yet at the same time I am really enjoying learning more about their little personalities every single day. They are so precious.
Even on days where Zane manages to spill an entire bottle of concentrated laundry detergent and begin swimming in it and then while getting washed off Zoe manages to start playing in the toilet... Even on those days they are so precious. I think more and more about my nephew Carter as they get older and get to be his age... His life, has given me this incredible gift of embracing the challenges with two babies. I get frustrated when Zane escapes the baby gate and starts climbing the stairs while I am knee deep in Zoes poop I get seriously exhausted by all of that. But, I remember sweet Carter and it is like God has used his life, his short life as a testimony to viewing each moment as a gift. My next breath, their next breaths, they are all gifts. It's perspective in a pill. Tears are streaming down my face thinking about it. I am so grateful for them. And, I am so thankful and will CHOOSE to be thankful each day I have with them even if it means mass chaos. I am an emotional ball of mess right now!! Signing off before i start getting really sappy. Just feeling gratefully exhausted right now!
